For a laptop

Life is summed up as Ying Yang, the good in the bad and the bad in the good… You see a glass half empty I see a glass half full, but no matter how much I try to ignore it, the other half is empty even though all I see is the full part, and there are those days when you can’t help noticing that empty and obscured part in the cup… Today, sadly, is one of those days.
I mentioned before once that I was robbed, and because of my previously bad sight (had Lasik Surgery) I thought he was my room mate carrying his own laptop. I even talked to him and he only stayed quiet. That event turned into a funny story… So I got robbed, life goes on. But today’s empty half revealed that sometimes life doesn’t go on for everyone.
A young man in my neighborhood got robbed two days ago… And he will never get to tell about it. What I understood from the people’s word of mouth is that three others robbed him and ended up murdering the young man… For a laptop… Just to get his laptop. He was only twenty three, five years younger than me. I started thinking ‘How bad can you be to do that for just a tool?’, then I started blaming the guy himself for fighting back, thinking that his life worthies more than his Facebook status… But I don’t think he ever considered it would be his last day, no one does. Maybe I was lucky to have a bad sight that day, five years ago… If I was able to recognize that thief, I may have had a different fate… For a laptop. But I guess it was not my time.
Bad can happen everyday and to everyone, with time, we may see the good that will come from it. I just hope there’s a half full glass for what happened for that kid. My prayers goes for him and his family.

I know that this isn’t the sort of topic that I blog about, but, to quote from Paulo Coelho.
‘The warrior of light knows that it is impossible to live in a state of complete relaxation’ ~ Manual of the Warrior if Light

Sometimes life forces us to glance at the empty half in order for us to appreciate the good.

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Two interviews in one week

Last week was the busiest, I shipped my book to the UK, had my hands full in finishing up with some of the patients in the clinics, and I had a full week exams.

Two days ago I was called for an interview in my university, and I did another one yesterday, which was conducted online… It was just what I needed after having a long week, and I had fun doing both. Here’s one Which occurred yesterday, An interview by Adam A. Ameen… I hope you will enjoy it, and if you felt like it, you can ask me anything too.

Q: I read your blogs and I want to know, how did you go from not being interested in reading to writing?

A: Well… I took a summer course, which as you know, is boring… So as I was shopping, I saw a book, called The lake house by James Patterson, it was a thriller. I liked the synopsis, and it said don’t read it alone at home… so naturally I read it alone at home… and that’s when I realized the love of reading, It was better than the movies, because when you read, you are the director, and for us, our imagination is the best.

Which brings us to writing, I saw my potentials when I gave my ideas to students who were discussing making a movie, I saw my self like the writers I admired… and one day, I saw one of my ideas, the one published now, getting praises from many… so I started writing, and here I am

Q: But what made you think you were able to write a whole novel just from a single idea?

A: Well… the impact of the idea coursed me to believe I can… I saw people seeing potential in it. My idea kept growing until I had no choice but to let it flow out

Q: And did you have experience writing before?

A: Before I started my novel? No… I was the guy who didn’t do well in literature courses… But at the same time I was only writing to get grades and just pass, and not to express or to be creative… So my experience came later, with reading… and you can tell that you gained a lot because when you read your work after you are done, you’ll get to realize what it needs to be at THAT league, the league of the bestselling authors.

Q: So In that case I’m guessing you did research to plan your story?

A: Research is an understatement… I did more than that

Q: How so?

A: I read two books about body language and the art of persuasion, so I can master my dialogues and my characters. I read technological books, like Spy craft, books about technicality and tactics, I went around asking doctors and pharmacist some medical questions… and of course, the internet… My eyes boiled daily as I did my researches, it was an effort which I really really enjoyed… I forgot to mention that I also did research about history and locations, and, believe it or not, about luxury watches

Q: That’s really something, let me ask you this though. How did you know you, say halfway through the story, that your writing is good and not bad?

A: Well, I doubted my self many times, because I can’t be the one to judge, because its my book… so half way through I wasn’t sure, I was sure though after I finished and started reading. It was like reading another book, I found my self enjoying what I wrote, and that’s when I realized it’s really good, by going back to my work as a stranger

Q: But were you completely detached from your work when you read it as just a reader?

A: You can’t tell… Which is why I got a second, third, and eventually, 20th or maybe more opinions… Even the greatest authors have to give their work to their agents before they approve to print their work. So When I saw that others loved it, I went for the process of publishing

Q: The most intriguing thing to me is: how did you fix the loopholes in your story after you were done and how did you make sure you tied all the loose ends? And more importantly how did you know you were done?

A: I made points before I started to write, and I read the book three times after I was done… So I guess its what did I do before I wrote and afterwards that made me sure I have tided all the loose ends.. and to be honest, I placed some ends further from this book to be tied later in the sequels.

Q: And did you ever think of putting anything of yours that you thought too controversial like something offensive, strong language or sex?

A: I don’t have to… you will always have readers thinking that way… some may see racism from a children’s book… which is why I went to avoid that by making my characters from more than one place, in a place where diversity exists, and most importantly, I wrote in the beginning of my novel

‘Good and Evil has no passport, it wears many skins, speaks in different tongues, and exists every where… even in the same person’

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Obsession… what does she do? And how far she will take you?

She is a woman to me, for it is the only way I can relate to how I am… I am obsessed with my ideas. I dream about them, but not too much because she won’t let me sleep. I feel happy when I describe her, I feel off when life gets in the way. She has never let me be, she is always with me. I always feel the need to write, but I am chained by my obligations, while all I really want is to share her story with the world.

We have those moments where we feel like we are fulfilling our destiny, even by doing a simple task… the sense of euphoria that surges within, god’s way to tell us that he is pleased with what we do. I sit in a lecture hall, and I get the feeling like someone is whispering into my ear, she reminds me that she’s here. She shines a light on a new idea, and I find my self treading on the thin line between the real and the unreal, where only my subconscious is awake, and my conscious is not aware of my reality.

How far will she go? Only I can tell by following her to the end…

Your ideas are your purpose, obsession is your guilt from being away from your purpose… make time for your ideas, or she will stop talking to you… once you lose her, you lose your purpose.

Be creative… be happy… be with purpose.

An author’s great moment

One thing an author likes to see is his/her impression on their readers, we are a cup which we like to fill with different kinds of compliments, amazement, appraisment, appreciacion… Et cetera. But I hit the holy grail on that one last week.

I took a week-off to see my loved ones back home, which was a long list. One of the favored ones were my brother’s family. His teenage kid came to me with a stack of papers, filled with words of his own, and he told me that he wants me to tell him what I think… I knew all along that he is a fan of my fiction thriller novel, and that he had enjoyed reading all the 423 pages in a couple of weeks, during his exams period (which in a way I feel guilty about). But to inspire him to unleash his own imagination was the best reward I received for writing my novel, giving the next generation the spark to go fill their own cup. I hope with all my heart he will be a great writer, better than his own uncle… God bless you Kiddo.

 

Another step for my book

 

This is kind of a big one for me, as I’m sure it is a good indication for all authors. This bookstore ordered a large quantity of my book, and here it is.

My book is growing, its not a newborn anymore. Now, my book started to walk on its own.

God bless (That Al Salasil bookstore) and their new branch in Avenues mall. I only hope this would be a good omen for what is to come for my novel.

I hope my novel would find its way to your shelves, now I’m more confident that it will.

 

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The weight we carry pushes us forward

‘We take our lives one step at a time, laying the pavement before each step’

This figure of speech, of how life goes, is overwhelmingly close to describe our days, as it represent how it can be a labor to live a normal life… let alone to try and accomplish in it.

We ask every day how can we proceed when we carry our own obligations; our families, our educations, our work…. our dreams. The more we introduce, the more hindrance we think we produced to our ongoing lives that we come to think that it came into a halt.

Our complicated lives makes it hard to pin point our true answer, because it is simple… We use our baggage.

I can only use my self as an example, so I hope people can relate.

Once a dropout of college, ex-engaged, who had never read a novel in his entire life. I had a lot of baggage that only keeps adding up. It is in the darkest hours that the light can be more prominent. I added to my baggage education once again, and the thought of writing came after I shared a couple of my ideas. My weight helped me in my ideas, using a clay of my own life in my novels proved to be useful, studying took time and energy, which I applied eventually on my book, I placed some of my medical knowledge I obtained and asked for from my professors. And the fact that I am in a university gave me access to a lot of information, where I could ask about mass communication, business, medicine, pharmacy… and the list goes on. Every time something is added to me, I try to see the good side, and how can it inspire me for my dreams.

So here I am… a published author, still walking when I really want to do is run. But I have to take it one step at a time… with my novels, my studies, and with my new love, who shares my dreams and hopes for our future.

 

Allow what you call weight the chance to inspire… let them speak to you, help you, and carry you onward, never give yourself the chance to stop. If you are a dreamer, then be sure everything that happens is happening for you.

 

What my book cover reveals…

 

This is my book cover… by artist Gida Sameh. She was the one I picked after I talked to her about my book, and after she was able to use her very unique imagination to come up with the idea for the cover.

It represents the transitional phases of my character… Here’s what The cover is trying to say:-

The men in the bottom, middle, and upper left are the same person. The first in the bottom is the time where the truth behind his tragic event of his birth was revealed… it brought him inside an asylum for a while where he, after a brief time with his doctor, learned to love psychiatry.

The second represents one job that he has, he became a psychiatrist, and the knowledge he obtained from that field came in handy with the other job… the one he is aiming a bit higher for.

The third representation on the upper left will be the soldier of fortune he wants to be… for those who read the synopsis in my older posts or my blog, this represent his time in this first book of the series, where he is taking parts in events to gain experience in that field.

That leaves us with the woman in the bottom left… well… I hope one day you will all find out who she is.

Best regards to all avid readers and thriller seekers.

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To create is to have a purpose

That’s how simple it is… everyone is trying to find his/her purpose in life, thinking that they will be happy if they did. Trust me when I tell you this, they are absolutely right. To have a purpose, is like having an assurance that there is a divine plan for you, and it gives your heart the calmness by knowing that you are not life’s byproduct.

Everyone have their own purpose. Learning, working, finding love or getting married… they are necessities, like breathing, and they define our race, nothing more. But a purpose, is something else, its using the very bit of the divine soul that created us all. A purpose is to create, to use that little fragment inside you. Give it shape, give it a sound, let that soul talk, it is the manifestation of your purpose. It wants to write, it wants to draw, it wants to film, it wants to sing… it may wants to do everything, unleash it, let that fragment that created you guide you, it will make you a better person.

I gave shape to my fragment, and thus came a book. I wrote a fiction thriller, and found my self becoming better in my other aspects of life. So please, try to create something in this world, be with purpose, be happy. Let your words enlighten every reader, give them the chill, make them feel romantic, or force them to sit on the edge. Let your drawings capture our hearts, force us to comment, and makes us imagine the story behind its colors and shapes. Let your songs spread joy, sadness, love, or even laughter.

All the best for everyone, may you all give shape to your purpose, and eventually, to your selves.

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