Complete Serenity…

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Have you ever seen something and thought, “There’s no way I can do that.”?… You know.. that one attraction where the standing line is too short? You may know that feeling and you may have experienced it yourself. But have you ever wondered in what universe the other you would say “This is my dream.. I want to conquer my fears… bring it on!”?

Well, until inter-dimensional travel is possible and you actually find another you who is not really you (If that makes any sense); there is no way to know for sure how would it feels like to conquer your fears. What I am trying to say is… you will never know anything until you actually try… not necessarily daredevil your way out of a daily routine, but to actually do what you wish.. what you dream of doing.

Now I got that out of the way, I’ll tell you exactly how the jump happened in three parts today; First the pre jump, Up top, and then Midair.

– Pre-Jump:-

I stood outside the park for a little while, waiting for a friend; a surgeon who was worried about me when he heard about the jump. But I believe if he hadn’t came I would have maybe hesitated and possibly chickened-out. The place was Xi Hai Park, China, Dalian city. The place had the world’s highest Bungee on waters… yes on waters and not the highest Bungee in the world. But it didn’t matter because it happened so fast I couldn’t tell if it was 156 meters or 10 meters. So we went inside the elevator and I watched how really high it was. With each second of ascend, my heart descends. I reached the top feeling light headed at first cause I didn’t breath while I was looking at the view. Then I was guided to where I would Jump.

– Up top:-

There was a young girl ahead of me who, in celebration of her birthday, decided to do the jump. I guess that’s one way to stay young. So she jumped… actually pushed because she was too afraid… then came my turn. They tied my legs and then brought me to the edge. And all it took was three counts… those three counts brought all my fears, all my dreams…  I was doing it to prove something to myself. I am a writer, a painter, an Orthodontist doing his postgraduate studies, I have no country, My future is obscure, and I knew my life was chaos. But it is the most interesting life I am living. No matter how I may one day describe my life, I won’t use the word boring. So I spread my hands and gave myself to fate.

– Midair

The first three seconds were fear. And then… the most beautiful thing I couldn’t have imagined happened. You know when you walk around, read, pray, sit… you are always thinking of other things, your job, your kids, that one girl or guy you have a crush on? We are always thinking of more than one thing at the same time. But… when I was up there… For the first time since I can remember, I couldn’t think of anything. My mind became so clear. To put it simply, I was in complete serenity. When they lowered the line down so I can ride the boat, I felt light, and all my troubles disappeared.

 

So my conclusion is; Life’s decisions are like Bungee jumps. Hesitation, fear, followed by thrill and then serenity after the accomplishment. So in the future if I ever felt despair, I’ll just remind myself of what I did… and if somehow I forgot… well I can always use another jump.

 

2015, Here We Go!

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Happy 2015, a once in a lifetime celebration. Humanity finally made it here and we are still not enslaved by robots (though I must say we are getting there since our hands are glued to our smart phones)
2014 is done; a history for some unlucky kid to read about in school  decades from now. For some, it was a year they will never forget, for others it was a year they wish they can forget. Either way it was a blessing that some of us managed to unravel the disguise it hid itself in. For me it was a full year, full time test of the mind, body, and spirit. It brought me to my yield strength, almost went beyond to break me. But I’ve learned long ago that god does not burden a soul beyond that it can bear.
GOD IS TESTING ME
Well, I finished my intern, officially a doctor now… okay okay, a dentist… you won’t see me do “… CLEAR!!” ZAPP!! Anyhow, I finished my intern, wealth and fame should be right afterward, my new clinic, my new brand clothing, tea with the queen every week… well… surprisingly it didn’t happen… plot twist!! I got sick… severe lung infection that no one yet knows what was the cause. So I stayed in bed, coughed blood once in a while, missed my employment date, and couldn’t do a better release for my novel Iblis. The sickness resolved itself, now I’m much much better than I ever was. I jog without coughing, and can actually breath without feeling ticklish between my ribs (only thing I missed 🙂 ).
I returned to my previous plans, found and regrouped with some of my friends and acquaintances who, not so long ago, decided to make a production company, a place where we can have the seeds of our talents and ideas planted and watch them grow. It turned out that they were not cut off for it, how do I know that? Well… I believe people are much like books, and like any book, there are things between the lines that are not written but can be formed through clues of well or poorly chosen words. They eventually wanted to call the company Q80Can (Kuwaiti can… as in a Kuwaiti can do it) and they wanted to focus on things that only attract Kuwaiti viewers. Now, living in Kuwait, one could understand why they thought that way, but I believe if it’s not meant for all, then it’s not art, Kuwait is a very small country, and plus, out of the twelve, only three were actually Kuwaiti, and an international team that only focuses on one place, one culture and a specific demographic viewers. In other words, the idea I have planned to produce with them was about to be altered so that it can only suit one nation. There are already boarders between countries… no need to place boarders in our minds.
I promote this... I am a citizen of the world.
I promote this… I am a citizen of the world.
So I contemplated, sulky and still ticklish between the ribs. I didn’t know what to do, I couldn’t find anyone who can bring the ideas buried deep with to life. That was the second question in the test… how will I answer it. In life you either win or lose… not true, you either win or learn.
 I saddled up and went on the hunt for an artist who may give form to my vision. Some would say eventually I would find one, but I have been severely unlucky, cursed some may think. The harder I tried the stronger was the fall. Living in Kuwait is one of the issues that is causing my writing career to move at a slower pace.
One would abandon such dreams at that point and call it a day. But not me. When you can’t stop thinking about your idea, when you live in two worlds, when it really hurts that you can’t accomplish it, that’s when you realize how important it is to you. But I ask myself, why is it so hard to make such a thing… is there another plan for how it should be done?
The answer came in a dream. I saw one of our generations best story tellers, Hideo Kojima, all I can say that this person makes me jealous. I told that person how much I hated his success… the answer was…” what is stopping you?” I answered by saying “I have no one to help me with it” Then, right before I woke up, that person said “You make it happen, don’t wait for anyone”.
So, following in the footsteps of one of my favorite motion graphic creators, Brooke Burgess, I decided to learn digital drawing and After Effect. But not until two weeks ago I decided to create everything literally by myself, and I mean Literally; drawing using Manga studio and photoshop, music score using FLStudio, editing usind After Effect, and even voice acting using Adop Audition. A full 26 episodes done entirely by yours truly, in hopes not to just inspire through the story I wrote, but also through the way I’m doing it, to prove that nothing is impossible, everything can be done with a little of faith, passion, tickly ribs, and most importantly, YOU.
I’ll talk more about that of course, for now I’ll just let the pictures do the talking for me.
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All the pictures seen are done by moi. It is my first time drawing and it took me a while to find a method that suits a beginner artist like me. I am trying my best to see this episodic story to its end. Story wise it is done, drawing wise just finished drawing episode one. Learning through doing is how I plan to do, through trial and error until something makes sense eventually :).
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Here’s where the magic happens. I’m using an Alienware laptop, Bamboo drawing pad and a Yamaha keyboard and some figures to cheer for me.
Well, I guess it is obvious what my new year resolution would be, that and publishing Iblis on bookstores where I am, also, I am working on the third book and I still have Kima, my inspirational story set in 1928 South Africa. So, since my hands are starting to cramp, I’ll leave you with my deepest wishes of happiness and health for you and all your beloved ones.
One more new year’s resolution is to learn this 🙂
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My Day In Photos

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I’ve always been curious about the daily lives of others who are living remotely away from where I am, not because I’m nosy, but because in my core – and this is true about me – I believe that there should be friends for me in every place in the world as a way of balance between the diverse, a connection that helps us to learn what stereotype education had managed to blur… To learn about each other’s normal, dorky, cool or corky lives.
I have planned to place this blog post as a tag type of post, where people could share a day in photos with their readers, so I hope if this goes well, everyone would participate. No rules, after all, it’s your day.

Here is what I wake up to everyday

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This is called the Fortune Meter, and it serves two purposes. One… It helps sober me out of my sleepy status, for it takes great concentration to not hit the wall… Or my feet… Which is why I brought the magnetic kind instead of the needle one.
The second purpose is the reason why I call it the Fortune Meter. The better I do, the more fortunate I would feel today… Another reason not to buy the needle type, because I would be so bumped if I got my leg pierced that day. Also, I am calling it the needle type because I honestly don’t know the actual term, but I don’t care, I did well today on the gauge.

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Wore my shirt of the day…. What do you mean you don’t get it?! Oh… Right… Explanation time. You see, elephant in Arabic language is pronounced ‘Feel’… Pop quiz!! Complete the following ‘I ……. Great.’

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The dental clinics building… I bet most of you thought I worked in a medieval dungeon, but no. It is a pleasant place to work at.

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Not sure if I’m doing root canal treatment or giving birth.

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That went well I hope. Hard part is done. Time to name the baby.

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On the way out, I decided to take a picture of a colleague of mine, and here’s why… He is a Doppelgänger; a person who looks exactly like a friend of mine, who lives in Dubai. Couldn’t find a picture to compare, the latter haven’t been social for a while. Maybe he got married?? 😀

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Near the Nile. I went for a coffee with a colleague. He asked me to come since I’m leaving this week for a short vacation and he wanted to say goodbye.

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So I’m back home where I keep it messy. Here is a picture of me working, doing the other thing I like to do, which is writing. I am preparing for my next and third installment of the Psychs series, following Iblis ‘Arabic for Devil’ which is entitled $(:/)$@(::/…. Sorry, I guess it’s to early to announce the name. 😀

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This is me wanting to kill myself after I did insanity workout. My body is so burning right now.

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I am a fan of video games… Who am I kidding, I live for it. Everyday I sit and live the adventures that I like to experience. I find it very inspiring and helpful.

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Here’s my sleeping pill… Although the book is too good, it is actually keeping me up.

So as you can see, today was a boring day… But if it was someone else’s I would have enjoyed knowing about it. I am going to have a week worth of vacation, I will be sure to share that with you all. I hope I have amused you today with this uncharted life of mine. Hope to see yours and read about it.

A. H. Amin

Project “Follow Me”

A very inspiring and creative theme presented in the most magnificent manner. Capturing the moment, a picture worth ten thousand words.. all that is used to describe the art that is photography is being well orchestrated through this idea and it is still in play, continuing to bring us joy and longing to travel.
Holding the hand of his muse, the Russian photographer Murad Osmann continues to be led by his inspiration, and his girlfriend, Nataly Zakharova in his ongoing journey. With her back facing the camera, she eagerly guides him through various locations across our globe. The exotic duo have managed to tastefully create and display a variety of exciting and culturally rich landscapes and architects through their clever set of images.
I have placed some of many of his brilliant works, you can view more through his facebook page or instagram.
BTW…
Can you guess the locations where these were shot?

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Here’s the lovely couple in action… 🙂

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What makes me jolly

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My keys to happiness are glued to my laptop, and lately I have been stuck to the screens. I’m preparing for my upcoming sequel, my short novel, and I am also translating a novel to English. I have been doing what makes me happy, but I got to say, I missed wordpress, blogging was the only healthy addiction that I know. It is always a good thing to have a place for your excess creativity; for every idea, whether it’s major or minor, must have a place in this life… And speaking of minor ideas, I have been approached by my faculty to write a 300 words story. They asked each from our university to pick one writer and the vice dean of dentistry thought I would be the faculty’s pen… Like I can have enough writing.
I would share my writing as soon as I’m done with it to get everyone’s opinion. They left the genre for me to chose from… So I’ll try to find something I can reach out to those who I’ll read it for… Oh that’s right… I would be reading it out loud.

Auf wiedersehen